throw yourself in with passionate curiosity

so tonight im watching the movie Liberal Arts, about this guy who has graduated college and now is a college admissions counselor and basically is depressed and slightly hopeless about his life; anyways, he vists his alma mater one weekend and meets this absolutely amazing sophmore who's there and they begin falling in love. my point in telling you all this is not really romance-related, rather the film has just caused me to question, "why doesn't anyone at Christian schools seem to care about learning itself?" like legitimately, i have not met anyone yet who has actually been really passionate and excited about learning, just LEARNING. gaining knowledge, studying thier passions, pursuing a deeper understanding of things they like. and i now that outwardly, everything i talk about would put me in the same category as these people. but im starting to realize how stupid that is--bceause deep down, i like learning. i like pursuing psychology and business and public speaking. it's painful sometimes, yes, and not always fun. but i like it and im glad to be here, to be in college. im grateful for this time in my life. i want to find other people who approach learning this way too. now, granted, my friends will occassionally highlight things they are enjoying and Sean has said that he enjoys school. but i would say that other than him, 90% of what my friends and i talk about it is how much we are dreading/putting off working on things, how much we wish we had free time, didn't have to apply ourselves. and i hate that attitude. i hate that my friends are okay with just cheating and bullshitting their assignments to get a decent grade. there's a reason i apply myself to my work, beyond the fact that i could never keep my scholarship without doing so. i actually want to learn these concepts and apply my own thoughts to them. i want to be here and i like being here.

i know that if i want to find these things  in others, ive got to start displaying them myself. be the change i want to see, you know? so that's what im going to start doing. no more of this endless complaining and negative talk. im going to be honest about how much i enjoy my work. now yes, i dont want to be annoying or criticize others without ever being sympathetic. but when people ask me what i have to do, from now on i want to give a positive outlook and lead my an authentic example. again, not that things will always be fun and i certainly dont need to lie about that, but what i do enjoy i want to say i enjoy. i want to be part of what i see in so many secular liberal arts schools--a passionate dive into one's education.

it's time to learn. and thank goodness because i cant wait.

ive taped the phrase, "throw yourself in with passionate curiosity" on my desk.  that's what i hope to do.