late nights and even later mornings

its after four in the morning right now. and im still awake, binging and purging. although--naturally--mostly just binging. im thinking of maybe watching yet another movie and then treking over the Waffle House across the street at 5:30 to get some breakfast. part of me is starting to get tired, but part of me is also thinking about how basically from now until Christmas im hardly ever going to have some alone time here in the dorm. my roommate's coming back early from fall break tomorrow, so no more of these long, drawn-out, addicition-saturated days. kind of just makes me anxious, you know? like, get those last few binges and purges in because soon enough you wont be able to. im also practically out of all food here in my room, so if i do want to eat, it's going to require me to leave. and Waffle House is known for being cheap and seedy, so that's good. i have been getting more and more anxious about walking across campus at night, though. which is really odd, actually, because i never really used to be too bad but now i keep getting scared when i get over near the 7-Eleven. like, there's always some sketchy guys hanging around outside and i just get worried that i'll be either bothered or followed or taken. especially when i have to wait a long time at the crosswalk. so....yeah. but hopefully morning will be better than late at night. even if its dark, there's still just a different attitude about people, a little more fearful, knowing that morning light is coming soon. so i should be okay. maybe Shoney's would be open instead. never been to one but i think they're a diner format? just checked and looks like they're not open till 6:30. we is not lasting that long. waffle house is indeed open 24 hours. gosh, part of me is so tempted to just go there now. after all, who's really going to be out this late? ha. probably exactly the creepy people you'd never want to encounter alone in the dark, as i would be. idk....

sorry this post wasnt very deep. also, i have no idea if any actualy person reads my blog, versus just the spamming random advertising sites. but if you do read this---please, please, please always feel free to leave a comment! id love to connect with someone. :)