so i yet again find myself pathetically not giving a shit about school. i have a huge span of nice, solid time in front of me to work hard on stuff. but instead im just feeling really, really apathetic and uncaring about whether or not anything gets done. i just do NOT feel in the mood to work. i dont want to engage with ideas, i dont want to work hard or focus. i just want to binge and purge by myself. but my roommate's here, so we all know that sure as hell aint going to happen. uggghhhhhhhh. i hate this. fuck.
and then i think about how i havent worked out in forever, how i havent purged at all today (which really makes me nervous), how im spending so much money, and how i have so much to do. and here's the catch: it's all SUPER do-able, i just have no will to do it. and thus, yes, there is no way.
going to go try and dip my toes into four different papers that are due in less than three weeks which i havent even started on yet. yeah. need to at least feel like i know the corners of the hellish pit before me...
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