so after last night, i feel a little bit like trying again with school. ive seen God work here at Regent, and i want to stay and see what else might happen. im not saying im totally gung ho--ready to pound out perfect, endless work. i dont have enough will on my own to do that, and im still full of sin. i also fear just reverting right back into performance mode, where i get so consumed with myself that i forget how sinful i am and how little i truly can achieve on my own. however, i do at least want to submit enough assignments with enough thought/effort appplied to them to keep me from having to leave because i lost my scholarship. i want to stay here with Robbie and work towards therapy. i dont know if God will speak again before i graduate, i have no idea. but i want to rest and wait here for Him. even though so many things have happened in ways i never would have expected, i do believe that i am supposed to be here. Serena's thing about the roommate, my meeting Leia, the scholarship.......i dont know. i just think maybe its good that im here.
so i will wait for God and, consequently, work hard to finish my assignments for school here. yes, i will wait while i work.
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